Wednesday, February 15, 2017
This is going to be a long process...
OK, me, don't get downhearted because you're off to a slow start. You've just had a reminder that one of the lessons you need to learn is that you can't let the needs of others distract you from your own. It's okay to tell people you can't help them if it interferes with what you're trying to accomplish. Don't beat yourself up about it. Everyone who knows you knows without a doubt that if they really need your help, you'll be there. You have to let people handle their own small stuff or you'll never get your own big stuff done. Now go -- breathe, live, love, laugh, learn, and come back when you're a bit more centered. You can't figure it all out at once, right? Right.
Thursday, February 9, 2017
Think, think, think (with apologies to Disney)
So. This is where I hope to sort some things out in my mind by trying to get them out of my head and into words. I've always liked words, so I don't know what's possessed me to do THIS to the poor dears, they never did me any harm. But so it goes, you always hurt the ones you love.
They say it helps when speaking or writing to picture a composite audience, a "person" you can address directly. I suppose this is simply another way of talking to myself (as if I needed another,) but which "self" am I to address? Let me instead picture an external theoretical person like me. If someone like this exists, my condolences.
This theoretical person is pretty smart, and thus is curious about nearly everything and therefore probably more than a little bit unfocused. S/he (I am female, but most of the time I don't think I understand females even a little bit) is a bit of a geek with a weird and dark sense of humour, is trying to figure out what s/he wants to be when s/he grows up, and very likely has some bad habits to clear up before that can happen. This person likes words and numbers, music and movies, food and drink, and wants to learn EVERYTHING (but not right away, because then what?)
And if I were this theoretical person, I would be wondering how I can possibly turn any of that into a Life Plan. Short answer: I can't. Probably. And that's why I'm here, trying to get all of the clutter out of my head so I can see if any of it is usable. Along the way I hope to find some shiny thing that calls to me, gives me some idea which way lies the road ahead. And maybe GPS and a terrain map would be nice.
They say it helps when speaking or writing to picture a composite audience, a "person" you can address directly. I suppose this is simply another way of talking to myself (as if I needed another,) but which "self" am I to address? Let me instead picture an external theoretical person like me. If someone like this exists, my condolences.
This theoretical person is pretty smart, and thus is curious about nearly everything and therefore probably more than a little bit unfocused. S/he (I am female, but most of the time I don't think I understand females even a little bit) is a bit of a geek with a weird and dark sense of humour, is trying to figure out what s/he wants to be when s/he grows up, and very likely has some bad habits to clear up before that can happen. This person likes words and numbers, music and movies, food and drink, and wants to learn EVERYTHING (but not right away, because then what?)
And if I were this theoretical person, I would be wondering how I can possibly turn any of that into a Life Plan. Short answer: I can't. Probably. And that's why I'm here, trying to get all of the clutter out of my head so I can see if any of it is usable. Along the way I hope to find some shiny thing that calls to me, gives me some idea which way lies the road ahead. And maybe GPS and a terrain map would be nice.
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